My lonely life, really lonely. suddenly got mood to write blog. but i really dunno what should i write. just wanna tell u all about what my heart think. love... is that harmful or harmless? for certain people, it is harmless and for certain people it is harmful. the 1 who say is harmful is me. i really tired of let girl hurt me. i really try my best, really my best in treat them nice. why i still cant win those bad guy? what is feeling? is that face? is that cool? is that bad? or is that money? is that face so important for a girl? i admit that i ugly but doesnt mean all can hurt me like they want to. i still a human. if this world do not have love? what i mean is those couple love. maybe i can smile better. have a better life. is that bad guy is more popular than good guy? 21 century girl like bad guy more than good guy? when bad guy hurt them, then they will say guy r suck. life is so meaningless. i love her. but why she dont love me? i did my best. best of the best. why i cant get my return? why other still never did their best and they can have what they want? why world is so unfair. even i try to avoid her, why she still find me? just forget about me then all will become normal to me. god, can give me reason why she dont like me? except for the feeling problem. sometime i wonder, feeling is an excuse or wat? excuse of reject guy or what? i like to watch midori no hibi. because the anime is totally say about me. just watched midori no hibi, feel happy and sad. dunno why, sawamura seiji 17 years old got gf. but i 22 years old still single. haiz... i dunno write wat anymore...