Hmm.... today abit out of topic. haha... a msn buddy list of mine that never online for 3 year half suddenly online. i was shocked after i finish dota and see the buddy online. omg. 3 year half i still remember? feel very weird right? did the person important to me? tell u all. its not important person but she yuen wang me so i forever remember her. but 3 year half already, all the thing has passed so just forget about it and become a happy fella. xD. back to topic. i really need more miracle. bubue treat me still lam lam tam tam geh. miracle, can u please come to make me and bubue together? althought our age distant is high but age distant really tat important? im able to take care her and understand her and more mature. wish that she could be with me, give me a chance to give her happiness. finish bla bla bla. xD. bubue, i really love u. althought now i got nothing. doesnt in future i also got nothing. a chance to me is very important. can u call me dear? night bubue. muacks. aisheteru.

Bubue, i wanna tell u that i only love u. I also wanna tell u that i dun like choco at all lo. u r the best to me because u can make me influence me happy, sad and others lo. bubue, choco wont beat u de when u call me dear. so just fong sam call ba. if choco really beat then allow me to protect u lo. i let her hit kao kao. sure wont hide. bubue, i always love u. wish u also always love me. muacks. i love u sweety

bubue.. sorry i forgot update blog. because yesterday u too sweet le. make me wan wan tan tan. so nice if u everyday also so sweet. muacks. i love you bubue. keep on going to sayang me. cos i need it alot. laopo, aisheteru. muacks.

haiz... recently bubue really treat me so cold. cold until freezing. what can i do? who can help me?? i going die from freeze le. she cant give me a chance to try to get close to her? i just wanted to more sai sam and guan sam her jek. like that very guo fen? not to mention that my friend de bf tat sex with many girl? i just request for some care. is that very guo fen? or i need become like my friend de bf only nice? why is so unfair? sometime i want ask her busy what. her answer all dunno den cannot say. let me know jor will make u die? good guy hard to be. really!!! i hate good guy. guai bu de ppl keep say nan ren bu huai, niu ren bu ai. i really did my best while she dun even know it. haiz. can someone give me some idea or opinion?

today my friend fetch me go sunway lagoon to have fun. i scare bubue boring den i subscribe 1 day maxis internet service to msn her. but she dun feel like wanna talk to me. summore i scare her cousin puma will really find her a bf. hmmm... noon tat time she dun feel like wanna chat with me de. i feel sad lo. haiz. dunno when she will treat me better. when night tat time she better abit le. night that time, i heard that got a guy keep chat with her. i so scare the guy is she like de or want chase her de. lucky is her cousin. i so weird why she dun wan me sms her jor? is that she hate me? scare me chase her? or any other reason? who can tell me? haiz... bubue, please give me a chance to treat u nice. can ma? i love u. muacks.

just i last blog i post den bubue reply me that she forgive me. i was so happy happy happy!!!!!!! until i cant imagine. the happy even word cant describe. even i also dunno how to say it out. bubue is the best for me. i love u. i need u. i will never hurt u anymore! never ever. dont dare say those bad word anymore. forever and ever! u say wat i listen wat. wat also listen because ur decision all good to me. muacks bubue. aisheteru. i love u, i miss u, saya cinta kamu, 我愛你. muacks!!!!

today is my last day write diary. bubue dont want me le. she cant forgive me. our love just because of ah ji ah jor this 4 chinese word den no more. i really very sad. sad is no 1 will understand me. i will never ever use this 4 word again. maybe i will never ever chase gal anymore. i really love u bubue. T.T bb all. sorry for anyone who keep support my blog. no more mean no more le. T.T love u bubue. muacks. wish we in future will have opportunity to together again.

bubue... already 3 day u angry me le. this 3 day i live in suffer. i say what, u also dont want forgive me. u know i feel very guilty? haiz. please forgive me. i no mood type le. just wish u can forgive me. night bubue. muacks. i love u

today i beg bubue very much. i keep on beg her. beg her to forgive me. beg her to accept me. at last she talked to me. got talk to me mean still got chance. i love her very much. because of that i cannot lose her. i cannot lose her at all. i must have her and take care her with all my best. today i really feel lonely. even gaming also feel lonely, keep go msn talk to her. wish her will forgive me. scare le. chinese always say see ghost liao of cos scare ghost la. this time make until bubue like this really scare le. typing blog while listening bubue send me de talked to me make me more miss her. dunno tomolo she will forgive me ma? bubue, this lesson i learned alot. but the price is expensive. almost lost u. 1 lesson is enough. dont wish for other lesson den i know everything. bubue, i would like to eat my favourite chezzy wedges with u. will u eat with me? muacks bubue. i want sleep le. i love u forever.

today diary very short. because i really got no mood to write. my luckiest ever in my life is i meet bubue. my biggest mistake ever in my life is i always make her angry?. am i a worst guy??!!! i think so. cannot help le. haiz.

YOSH~ bubue forgive me le. Really really happy la. Happy until dunno what to say. although bubue still treat me very cold but i know this is a good start for me. i will keep on chasing bubue until she be my wife. o.O i dream too far. actually i like to dream. xD because i can dream how nicely i treat bubue. hmm.... bubue thanks for forgive me. after this case i really really really scare of making u angry. bubue, i love u. i always do. wish 1 day u will same to me love me. bubue, night muacks oyasuminasai. miss u forever. wish can hug u sleep.

haiz... none of my business. this is what bubue today always tell me. after see she send the sms to me. heart so painful. i love u bubue. not choco. not others. just u. why u keep saying me like choco? when i chat with u, i feel so happy. when i didn't chat with u, i will so boring. when u angry me, my heart feel so painful. bubue, i really in love with u. can u forgive my bad? please dont hate me. this few day i totally down. my emotion, my mood all dropping. even i eat food, i also cannot taste the delicious of the food. bubue, i love u. can u forgive me? god, please help me. i really love bubue. can u persuade her to forgive me and love me? i love her very much. bubue, i very miss u. night bubue. muacks. i love u. take care.

just now after wake up from sleep really nothing do la. heart really feel very sad. den sit in front of table. my cousin tell me that he already brought my mooncake. its lotus mooncake. bubue and my favourite mooncake. lotus mooncake very sweet, but why after i ate, i feel the lotus is bitter? is that my heart too sad? i really stop eating tat mooncake and give my cousin eat. i scare i keep eat it den i will very miss bubue. i really feel very san fu. without bubue how sweet de food also become bitter. with bubue, what food also sweet even through its bitter food. can someone tell me what to do? SOS... i need help. T.T love bubue forever. muacks

anyone who see this diary??? can help me answer? Dunno can be forgiven?

evan evan... how come u so so so stupid. people so nice ask u dont want say again. why u still go say it again. say for wat? people treat u so nice. what also give u. why cant u self satisfied? now wanna cry le. but have to endure. got ppl here. how to cry. guy shouldnt cry? but if i bubue dont want me, i think my tears really will out. cannot endure. very sad. bubue everytime also treat me so nice. cant i appreciate it?
never ever listen my friend say. what make her angry den tam her back!!! what kind of stupid idea is tat???!!!! how can i go believe it. eyes full of tears. bubue, i need u forever. forever and ever. do not trust on anyone that give fake idea to me on chase u anymore. use my feeling. except puma la. puma is exception. bubue, i know wrong le. if the time can return back, i will never do it again. i will appreciate u. love u. care u as well as care for ur feeling. wish puma punish me den help me. T.T love u and miss u bubue. muacks

bubue... puma. puma... bubue. so confuse. bubue, i just only can say that i am too confuse already. sometime puma take ur phone and sms me. so this may make me confuse. maybe that time i just wake up from sleep so i feel myself abit blur. summore puma on ur msn and tell me something. so i was thinking it is her lo. bubue, i really miss u only. no miss other. bubue... please believe me. i love you and extremely miss u too. wish u will forgive me. muacks.

how sad!!!!. mou la la make bubue angry. i really dunno say what le. dunno who fault la. not in mood. bye bye muacks bubue love u. please forgive me

bubue... i wanna know how u see me. i really want to know. T.T can u tell me? i want to self improve. i scare later i become bad guy jor then u dun wan me. sob. god can fast ask bubue tell me about her answer? i really need it. today... hmm... me and bubue chat till very happy. today, i no make her angry. xD. a successful step is taken toward her? o.O dunno la. till now i still dont dare think anything. i just want her live happily. with her everyday, any bad luck day, i also got confident to handle it. maybe this call power of love. even we never meet b4 but my feeling to her just like i everyday meet her. almost forgot, today bubue saw i scold her sister choco bad word a lot. lucky she din get angry. dunno i got deduct mark or not? as long as i did my best to her then i am satisfied le. but my biggest wish is she can become my girlfriend and my wife. puma keep ask me dream about it. actually i got a bit scare that puma like give me signal say i 100% guarantee fail. however, i still will did my best. Evan gambateh kudasai. aisheteru bubue chan. f3. night bubue. muacks aisheteru wen. ^^

bubue today very very very quiet. she seems dont like to talk to me. maybe she still remember about yesterday thing. i really wish her can forget it and forget that i ask people to scold her. maybe i really hurt her too much. just now sms to her. at the beginning she very quiet. but finally she talk a lot. but just because i say 1 wrong thing. she ask me go talk to my friend. but not her. but bubue, did u know that? i only want to talk to u, not others. bubue, wish u 1 day will accept my love. wish u tell me that u love me. muacks bubue. i love you and miss u too

bubue, actually different person different view. when u think that i transfer credit to u is no good but for me is good. nothing is wrong just how u view the thing. bubue... i love you. sorry today bear simply say thing. did he hurt u deeply? bubue... i always make u suffer. i do not want this kind of thing happen anymore. bubue, i will protect u rest of life until i unable to protect u. i will forever love u like romeo and juliet. bubue tomorrow dont sad le. dont cry le. evan wipe out ur tears. night bubue. wish u forever happy. i love you always. miss u too. muacks

today really sad. bubue maybe dun wan me le. haiz. what can i do? haiz. i also dunno what to say already. its all my fault. all is my zi zuo chong ming make me like this. if i got nothing to say. just go game or do other thing. dont find thing and say. say wrong thing is very cham de. but this lesson is too expensive. can i dun pay the bill? lost bubue le. T.T i cannot lose her 1. can anyone save me??? please? T.T kamisama? onegai? T.T

bubue... today i so happy that u never angry me. after knowing that u never angry me, my insomia immediately recover. u r just like angel then heal my disease. bubue, i wish u will give me ur new handphone number. i want keep contact with u and if u do, i willing to call u xD. i just dreaming.=.= bubue, can i ask u something? am i treat u well? puma also can give me ur opinion. but of course, bubue answer is the most important. bubue, when u decide already then can tell me ur answer? bubue... aisheteru ^^. night. i go sleep 1st. muacks... love u 4ever.

bubue... today u no choi me. without u, my live is so much boring and meaningless. today is 9th september 2009 which mean cheong cheong gao gao but u not be with me. all the thing become meaningless. i really know i wrong. it is my fault that i make u angry. can u forgive me? next time i what also listen u say lar. i try did what u say. bubue... evan miss u. miss u every much. miss a person feeling is not good at all. the heart will feel sour sour and very hard to breath. bubue... forgive me can? wish u see this diary. muacks my beloved bubue.

bubue... pls dun change ur hp number and msn address can? i dun dare again. i dunno why u so angry when see my sms. i really sorry. its really make me so upset now. please forgive me. i will never do it again. tomolo i wish i will see u again. my beloved bubue. im sorry. T.T muacks miss u and love u forever bubue.

bubue... sorry misunderstand u. i wanted to apologize to u. these 2 day i really very upset because i scare u got bf or hate me. i did not know that u r busy for something. i really so so so sorry about u. bubue... u very sweet. sweeter den honey. just now u lent credit from ur bro and sms me. i really very happy. i tot u will not reply me cos u dun have credit anymore. bubue, i love u. muacks... i want sleep le. want early sleep so that early wake up accompany u. wish tomorrow i can see u online. muacks. love you bubue... my precious bubue...

today bubue no online. I really dunno what happen. She still angry me or other reason. A lot of reason that i have think. Most scary is bubue got bf. Haiz. Today i so miss her. Afternoon that time, i really let her gek sei. I sms her ask how was her flu and why no online. She reply me no online need reason de meh? Haiz. Its hurt. Bubue... How come i treat you so nice and you cannot feel it. My blog is created for you and you not even leave a comment. While choco is create for herself and you at there leave comment. Why want like this treat me? I always tell you that i have nothing to afraid. Actually i got a thing that i really afraid. Thats lost you. You know how much important you in my heart? Happy time always faster than sad time. Maybe human is 90% suffering and 10% is happiness. Cant i begging more? I really wanted you to know how much i sayang you and care you. I know this diary maybe will make you angry. But i really wish that you will have a bit space for me in your heart. Just a bit den i really satisfy le. I gan dong tian gan dong ti.. Why i cant gan dong you? I dont want linda and choco. I just want you. Just you. K la.. I want sleep le. Night. Muacks my beloved bubue.

bubue... sorry today make u unhappy. i really too dumb in make u happy but i always try my best to do so. bubue, actually can tell me today i do wrong what ma?? i really wish i would knew it because this is very important to me. bubue, flu very san fu? haiz... next time air con dont open so cold lur. haiz... today donno say wat la. really no mood. k la night. bubue wish u recover as soon as possible. muacks i love u and miss u.

today really sien. Bubue today almost sleep whole afternoon le. I cannot chat with her. When i wanted to chat with her. She say sleep. Haiz. When she sleeping and i very boring, i suddenly think sleeping beauty. I wonder she lying on the bed and i go kiss her den she wake up. How sweet it is. Although it just a fairy tales. Sometime fairy tales can bring good memories to alot of people. When evening time, puma say she want offline le. I tot bubue only dc. But i really dunno bubue already awake. My energy, my soul fly dunno fly till where. I from sitting in front of pc gaming till lying on my bed moodless. I wonder when bubue wake up. Lying not long time den i fall into sleep. Maybe i too miss her. I dreamed her again. Maybe love is that mysterious. I dream her so sweet. Suddenly hp ring. Sms come. Is puma find me den i only know bubue cannot online. I wanted to sms her early already but cos i scare wake her up. At last. I still can chat with her. Chat with her just like i drink coffee in heaven with an angel serve me. That angel is bubue... Happy time really fast past. She so early sleep. Bubue i wanted to say i love you. Not linda. You are the best. Best of the best. Bubue, i wish i forever can stay beside you. Take care you. Protect you. Love you.

Today is birthday.^^ What so special in this birthday. Actually this year birthday i really really really happy. Because i get what i want from bubue which is my laopo.^^ Today bubue very sweet. Actually at 8pm something i wanted to write blog already because bubue no online. At that time i through she don't even care about my birthday. but at last, she online and give me the good news!!!! it is so wonderful!!!! Bubue Actually i really not don't want ask you before transfer credit to you. i just scare u wont accept it so i make decision to send to you. please understand my situation. bubue... you are the only girl in my heart. Not the one who puma say 1. you are the best in my heart. ^^ bubue... i love you... i really really really love you. Wish u everyday also so sweet. ^^ muacks... night... miss you much as well as love u.^^

Bubue... sorry... i really feel so sorry that i make u angry. actually i just wish that tomorrow u will online accompany me only. when i know that u want to do project with friend then i dun wan to tell. because i think project is much more important to u. Bubue... please do not angry me. next time i what also tell u. i really feel so sorry about what i have done to u. Bubue.. actually i just dun wan u to feel hard to decide only. Bubue... today is ghost festival. Do not scare scare. Evan always there for u. Bubue... i wish my birthday present would be your hp number.^^ can u give me? ^^ Bubue... just now i ate dinner with my friend. he soon go for heart surgery. haiz bubue... wish u healthy forever so that we can forever together. night bubue... muacks. love u and miss u

i really not so understand about bubue. i admit it. even through i everyday chat with her. how can i do not understand her? bubue... can tell me how to make u love me? i know is fake for u that i every second also miss you. but for me is true. i really miss u. Bubue, i wonder why u cannot accept that i love you? am i really treat u that bad? just now i no mood until go sleep because i really cant imagine how much i miss u. after sleep, my brain will rest, then i wont have the miss feeling. haiz. i don't even understand u like ur cousin puma. everytime u angry, is not i who tam u happy back. is puma. am i that useless? haiz... going to birthday le... did babue know my birthday if she didnt see my blog and friendster no notice? she never ask me my birthday? why? i really dunno. maybe she dont even care about my thing? Dunno la... just dun wan think so much.Be happy always and just gambateh be the one bubue first person will think... bubue... i will never give up from loving u and my decision will not wrong. muacks bubue... love you and miss u forever.