Learn to let go... even i dun wan to learn but in the end, i still have to learn it. after i have cheer, i should let go even i dun wan. this is my destiny. no 1 will accept me. i have to face it. i always living in the dark. give a hand to who need it and let go at the time they dun need me. i hate it. why i cant just have someone i love? am i not enough good? haiz... i going to change blog address le.

hmm.... yesterday puma ask me who is the miao miao. of cos not girl la. miao miao of cos is a cat. that day, when i wake up, den i see a miao miao in front of me and keep miao miao. the cat pregnant le. den i tot she cant go out den i hug her go out. very heavy. =.= den i cont my sleep den not longer den she jump in again. disturb i sleep den i hug her out again. third time, she still jump in and go my housemate room den my housemate shout. =.= such cute de cat also can shout. den i hug out and close window. den she cant jump in le. when afternoon, the weather change to bad, and heavy rain until rooftop of my place also blow away. just wonder the cat alright or not. yesterday my heart sour sour de. why sour sour? why i treat everyone good and in the end, everyone also forget me? am i really deserve of this? why i just did my best and didnt get the thing i want? even so easy de thing also cannot did for me? is it fair for me? is like this... im alone... im lonely. i just like mari who left by her owner. what did mari feel is wat i feel? so i very like the video. even the animal also can treat so good to human den why human cant treat animal nice? i have see alot of tragedy between human and animal. use boiling water to pour on the cat. what is this???!!! if the cat pour boiling water on u. what will u feel? haiz... i have no eyes to this world anymore. totally give up... no more hope it. just did my best to save how much i could...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A3Guyq5jbIU. nice video. very touching. this video is talking about how loyal is dog treat their owner. this movie i got some part tat i dun like. however, this is true. human are cruel. human always fight with human. because of small matter get angry or piss someone and like to hurt another human. make those revenge endless. even dog also can treat human nicely. they cannot chat to human. they just can use dog language while human do not know what they say. while human and human, they using human language and still can fight with own race. is that human are too suck? so many day no chat with her. is that she too cruel already? dunno la. feel tired about love already. i did my best and with no regret. so i no need to self blame. maybe she happy without me. so its ok with me. may wish world peace and always happy.

that day i heard a video about if i got 100mbps. very very funny. good video. if i got 100mbps then i would no need suffering slow internet speed. can download and surf web fast. haiz... so many day she didnt talk to me le. dunno wat should i say jor. did my best. if its not mine, mean its not mine.

o.O i write blog again.== because i too boring doing assignment le. after using new monitor for few day, i feel satisfied. graphic become nicer le. haha. maybe is my eyes got problem. i feel lonely. lonely about why no one will guan sam me de? i really so char until no people will even spend their time to guan sam me? i always guan sam people den no people will spend time to guan sam me? i guan sam people is my job? is i dai sei so that i have to do it? i really really really lonely. kamisama, please take away my loneliness. i afraid of lonely.

not feeling well. Really not feeling well.. So many day le. My heart still not feeling well. How much you influence me? Just like plant need sunlight to survive. I miss you. I love you. I wanted to tell you. But i have no chance. Kamisama... What should i do? Already long time le. I try to forget her but i fail to do so. She now not even wanna talk to me. What can i do? Devil in lonely.. T.T